“We admitted that we were powerless over our addiction, that our lives had become unmanageable.”
Well that is certainly true, that I am powerless as a squirrel to resist addiction to nuts. However, this is harder to admit then I’d previously thought. Every time I stopped using nuts I would feel so much better, but after about a week or two the cravings and nagging would always cause me to return. Whether it was a week or a month, the problem was always inside me waiting to get out. So now I’m trying to execute an active plan that will take me on the road to squirrel-y recovery and away from feeding the beast of nut addiction.
So all the times I told myself I could just use a little bit, and I would just keep it to one or two nuts every so often. It wasn’t long before it was at least two nuts a day, and more if I could find them. Every time. So I need to pay attention to my history and stop trying to get different results from the same experiment.
I am powerless over my addiction (on my own), and I’ve seen my life become unmanageable many many times if I play this tape to the end. So I’m trying to hit stop and eject the tape this time . . .