SQUIRREL NOTES: Although I don’t write these posts, but instead re-post from daily NA readings, this one just struck me as being so crucially important and really spoke to me in regards to my diseased thinking and that this is TRULY a disease of isolation. I sought to isolate and insulate myself from the unpleasantries of my life in the past with the use of nuts, and although I no longer need to do that because my life is really full and wonderful, the old habits and desires remain. I do feel like I learn something new every day though – this isn’t even the first time I’ve read these words. But they are truly speaking to me today. -P. Squirrel
“We find ourselves doing and enjoying things that we never thought we would be doing.” – Basic Text, p. 102
Active addiction kept us isolated for many reasons. In the beginning, we avoided family and friends so they wouldn’t find out we were using. Some of us avoided all nonaddicts, fearing moral backlash and legal repercussions. We belittled people who had “normal” lives with families and hobbies; we called them “uncool,” believing we could never enjoy the simple pleasures of life. Eventually, we even avoided other addicts because we didn’t want to share our drugs. Our lives narrowed, and our concerns were confined to the daily maintenance of our disease.
Today, our lives are much fuller. We enjoy activities with other recovering addicts. We have time for our families. And we’ve discovered many other pursuits that give us pleasure. What a change from the past! We can live life just as fully as the “normal” people we once scorned. Enjoyment has returned to our lives, a gift of recovery.
Just for Today: I can find pleasure in the simple routines of daily living.