Today I’m going to do something I haven’t ever done before – go sit down “one on one” and talk with someone about myself, my problems, my life, and whatever else they want to talk about regarding me. I’m hoping that I’ll be able to gain some further insight as to why I am the way I am, and why I do the things I do.
I’ve tried a great many things; I’ve gone through a county sponsored out-patient rehabilitation, I’ve tried Narcotics Anonymous, and to varying degrees both these things worked in very much the way they were supposed to. But I’ve come to realize there is more going on then I can fix by myself, or even with just the things I’ve learned from these various programs and groups. It’s time to get serious about the job of FIXING myself. I’m pretty sure I’ve got some good ideas about what the problems might be, I’m just clueless as to what to do about that.
As some of you observed, I’ve had to re-set my “nut free” date yet again. Rather than dwelling on the negative aspects that are connected with that reality, I’m choosing to focus on the future going forward, making sure that this time is the LAST TIME I ever have to reset that date. Whatever it takes . . . Things have changed and I have responsibilities to make sure get taken care of. People are counting on me. One of these people is myself. I need to count on myself, and I need to take care of myself. That means getting help when I need it – and that is exactly what I’m going to be doing today. I’ll let everyone know how it goes.
-P. Squirrel out!