New things . . .

Therapy squirrelToday I’m going to do something I haven’t ever done before – go sit down “one on one” and talk with someone about myself, my problems, my life, and whatever else they want to talk about regarding me.  I’m hoping that I’ll be able to gain some further insight as to why I am the way I am, and why I do the things I do.

I’ve tried a great many things; I’ve gone through a county sponsored out-patient rehabilitation, I’ve tried Narcotics Anonymous, and to varying degrees both these things worked in very much the way they were supposed to.  But I’ve come to realize there is more going on then I can fix by myself, or even with just the things I’ve learned from these various programs and groups.  It’s time to get serious about the job of FIXING myself.  I’m pretty sure I’ve got some good ideas about what the problems might be, I’m just clueless as to what to do about that.

As some of you observed, I’ve had to re-set my “nut free” date yet again.  Rather than dwelling on the negative aspects that are connected with that reality, I’m choosing to focus on the future going forward, making sure that this time is the LAST TIME I ever have to reset that date.  Whatever it takes . . .  Things have changed and I have responsibilities to make sure get taken care of.  People are counting on me.  One of these people is myself.  I need to count on myself, and I need to take care of myself.  That means getting help when I need it – and that is exactly what I’m going to be doing today.  I’ll let everyone know how it goes.

-P. Squirrel out!



A squirrel of service . . .

Albino squirrel

A helpful, high contrast squirrel!

After having a particularly tough few days, I set off on my morning scurry nice and early today.  The sun was just coming out, and the mist was sitting low in the air.  Other squirrels were out, dining on fence tops and hiding at the tops of their trees before they realized it was just me and went about their business.

As I scurried along and was getting ready to cross the street, I saw another squirrel looking rather disheveled, confused, and cold.  I didn’t feel threatened, but just kept moving along on my way.  The other squirrel approached me, and asked me for directions.  Not just any directions, but directions to the no-cost nut-treatment center and housing facility in our area.

All of a sudden it was like looking an a mirror for an alternate reality – I was staring right in the face of what I would become if I used nuts again.  I was filled with understanding and compassion for this squirrel, and wished I could provide more help, but knowing that he was well on his way to where he was going with my directions made me feel good.

I am always reading about trying to be “of service” – today I actually got to DO IT!  It really was rewarding to be able to give something away to someone else who needed it.  I felt like this:

Knight squirrel

Squirrel in shining armor . . .

That’s all I’ve got for now.  I haven’t been posting as often as I should, so I’m going to try to make an effort to do more regular posts.  Maybe an every other day post?  We’ll see!

P. Squirrel out!