Return of the Squirrel

Wow has it been a month already?  I’ve been having my ups and downs but right now things are doing well for me and I wanted to come here and update everyone on how I was doing.

First I wanted to comment on something I was reflecting on, about how even though I haven’t been posting anything new for a while, all my old posts and struggles and stories are there on the web for people to search out and read.  And you have been!  I’m just thankfully surprised at the number of people who do read what I write, and I appreciate it and hope that you get something out of my personal story.  I hope that I have inspired someone – not because I’ve had any terrific victory or success, but mostly because I haven’t given up and I’m not going to give up.

My last posts were discussing my plans to seek talk-counseling therapy and how that was going for me.  My first attempt didn’t go so well, but I’m happy to say that I’m trying again and have an appointment to talk to someone coming up next Tuesday, and I’m really happy about it.

I’m at a point in my life where some seriously hard changes need to be made, and I need to take things seriously and try to grow up a little bit.  Just having a new job doesn’t fix all your problems, just like buying a chocolate bar doesn’t fix all your problems.  At least the chocolate bar tastes great!

My job is going pretty awesome, all things considered.  The swing shift is quiet, and I do get a lot of work done which I like.  I have a little time for myself too, and have been trying to do some on-line classes to fill the time.  I’ve always had a problem with on-line learning, having gone through the 4-year university program I’m very much used to a classroom setting and tend to have motivation issues when in an on-line only education setting.  But I’m trying… trying new things and retrying old ones.  Just the RIGHT old ones.

I’ll try to keep everyone more updated on my progress, and at least let you guys know how Tuesday goes.  Until then, I hope everyone is doing well.  For the moment, I am. =)

P. Squirrel out


Reality check . . .

It’s difficult to remember the reality of that fact that even though one is no longer using does not mean that all your problems disappear and the world is a perfect place.

In other words, just because I’ve stopped using nuts to deal with the stress of my problems, doesn’t mean that those problems that are not nut related are solved, or just go away.  I think people will be angry when they realize that there are so many more issues in life than can be dealt with easily, and that they don’t disappear once you get clean.

On the other hand paw, how thankful am I that on top of all the other problems I don’t have one more looming, weighing me down, and adding to the overall sense of misery?  How much worse would it be to have to deal with life’s issues AND the imbalance and uncertainty that come from sustaining an active nut addiction?  I must remember to be happy for this!

The tail end . . .

The “tail” end . . . bushy tail end!

And on the “tail-end” of things (pun intended!), I have noticed as of late, a pronounced and definite improvement in mental clarity and acuity, which goes to show that the detriments of nut abuse are far reaching and, although easy to dismiss at the time, cause very real changes in a person.  Fortunately, we do recover!

P. Squirrel out!