Return of the Squirrel

Wow has it been a month already?  I’ve been having my ups and downs but right now things are doing well for me and I wanted to come here and update everyone on how I was doing.

First I wanted to comment on something I was reflecting on, about how even though I haven’t been posting anything new for a while, all my old posts and struggles and stories are there on the web for people to search out and read.  And you have been!  I’m just thankfully surprised at the number of people who do read what I write, and I appreciate it and hope that you get something out of my personal story.  I hope that I have inspired someone – not because I’ve had any terrific victory or success, but mostly because I haven’t given up and I’m not going to give up.

My last posts were discussing my plans to seek talk-counseling therapy and how that was going for me.  My first attempt didn’t go so well, but I’m happy to say that I’m trying again and have an appointment to talk to someone coming up next Tuesday, and I’m really happy about it.

I’m at a point in my life where some seriously hard changes need to be made, and I need to take things seriously and try to grow up a little bit.  Just having a new job doesn’t fix all your problems, just like buying a chocolate bar doesn’t fix all your problems.  At least the chocolate bar tastes great!

My job is going pretty awesome, all things considered.  The swing shift is quiet, and I do get a lot of work done which I like.  I have a little time for myself too, and have been trying to do some on-line classes to fill the time.  I’ve always had a problem with on-line learning, having gone through the 4-year university program I’m very much used to a classroom setting and tend to have motivation issues when in an on-line only education setting.  But I’m trying… trying new things and retrying old ones.  Just the RIGHT old ones.

I’ll try to keep everyone more updated on my progress, and at least let you guys know how Tuesday goes.  Until then, I hope everyone is doing well.  For the moment, I am. =)

P. Squirrel out

New things . . .

Today I’m going to do something I haven’t ever done before – go sit down “one on one” and talk with someone about myself, my problems, my life, and whatever else they want to talk about regarding me.  I’m hoping that I’ll be able to gain some further insight as to why I am the way I am, and why I do the things I do.

I’ve tried a great many things; I’ve gone through a county sponsored out-patient rehabilitation, I’ve tried Narcotics Anonymous, and to varying degrees both these things worked in very much the way they were supposed to.  But I’ve come to realize there is more going on then I can fix by myself, or even with just the things I’ve learned from these various programs and groups.  It’s time to get serious about the job of FIXING myself.  I’m pretty sure I’ve got some good ideas about what the problems might be, I’m just clueless as to what to do about that.

As some of you observed, I’ve had to re-set my “nut free” date yet again.  Rather than dwelling on the negative aspects that are connected with that reality, I’m choosing to focus on the future going forward, making sure that this time is the LAST TIME I ever have to reset that date.  Whatever it takes . . .  Things have changed and I have responsibilities to make sure get taken care of.  People are counting on me.  One of these people is myself.  I need to count on myself, and I need to take care of myself.  That means getting help when I need it – and that is exactly what I’m going to be doing today.  I’ll let everyone know how it goes.

-P. Squirrel out!

 

A squirrel at work!

Here’s what I look like doing my new job!

Hacker Squirrel!!! =)

So far I’m having a blast!  It feels so good to be helping people use their technology, or fix it when it’s broken.

An unfortunate side effect has been a lot less free time to post here, but I expect within another month things will calm down and I can resume a more normal posting schedule.  I just wanted to check in with everyone and let you all know that I’m doing well!  Just super busy! =)

-P. Squirrel out!

Silly and Serious – or, Why don’t *I* have the day off?

Greetings squirrel lovers!  Not much going on today, as it’s a government holiday for many.  Unfortunately, this is delaying my new job situation by at least a day so I am going to spend a whole day just waiting for everyone to come back on Tuesday, so I can receive my official job offer.  I am trying to be a patient squirrel but it’s HARD!

So to distract myself I have a silly presentation, and a serious one.  Here’s my silly squirrel:

Miley Squirrel

Either someone is feelin’ the heat, or they’ve been watching too much DVR’d Video Music Awards.  That Miley Cyrus is not a good influence for squirrels!

In my serious presentation, I wanted to highlight these websites: CARE INSTRUCTIONS FOR INFANT SQUIRRELS and Squirrel-Rehab.org.  Both these sites provide helpful information for people who might find squirrels abandoned by their parents.  I personally have always wanted to help rehabilitate a squirrel – but I might be too tempted to keep it for a pet!  How could you resist their squirrely cuteness!

Mmm… tasty!

Pensive Squirrel Overlooking Prague

Have you ever met someone who has the exact same name as you?

I just found out there are other Pensive Squirrels out there . . . one lives in Prague.

Pensive Squirrel overlooking Prague

It’s worth a trip over to the source page for this image to see this picture in full resolution.

Thanks to the photographer for posting this beautiful image online.

-P. Squirrel (of America)

Keep on goin!

Just wanted to let everyone know I’m still around – hanging in there the best I can. =)  I found a lot of support from my previous post, the Just For Today titled “Right Back Up.”  I feel like that describes my journey perfectly – I went from falling down hard and not knowing what the heck I was ever doing, to falling less and less hard and figuring more and more out.  So now I can avoid those bumps in the road that I used to trip over.  It’s a nice thought.

This doesn’t have a thing to do with my post, or my mood, or my situation.  I just think it’s really funny, so here’s my squirrel “picture” for the day…

Squirrels hate “snake eyes”!

Anxious squirrel . . .

Hey everyone!  Just thought I’d come on here because I was feelin’ a bit of stress lately.  Certain things I had been hoping would turn out and be a big improvement for me and my life are not happening quite as easily as I thought, or possibly not at all.  It’s still at the wait-and-see phase, but it’s not looking good.  So as a result I’m feeling some anxiety about this.

Keep calm and scurry on?

So for now I am just reaching out into the squirrel universe and hoping that something good happens because of it.  There is still some hope, and there are some key people out there pulling for this to still happen, but some negative detractors are trying to interfere with the success of the whole operation.  Still hoping it all works out!  But just trying to not worry in the meantime . . .

P. Squirrel out, for now . . .

Pacific Coast Squirrel (day fourteen)

Just goes to show there are squirrels everywhere!  Here’s a very tiny-bodied little squirrel, nibbling on a tiny little snack!

Rather than the usual squirrel sounds I was used to, this one almost seemed to purr or “vibrate” when it called out – it was an hilarious squirrel noise!  I wanted to rename it the “vibrasquirrel”.

The vibra-squirrel!

Here’s a close up of this super-cute squirrel!

I’m a cute little squirrel with glowing eyes . . . who are YOU?

Remember the trees! (day nine)

Almost time to leave!!!  Trying not to get stressed – looking forward to seeing my sweet trees!

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Serene Squirrel (day eight)

Squirrel with mono?  NO!  MONO SQUIRREL!

It’s important to remember how nice it is to be calm and serene, and peaceful.  No stress, no cravings, no need for drama.  I’m reveling in it – soon to be a squirrel by the seaside!

“Wave” to the squirrel!